I just got news that I’ve got an invite to go compete in the Australian Nationals. Sounds like big news and its a partial sponsor by Climb Asia. Feel so honored. So despite skipping all the World Champs and Asian Champ stuff, i checked the dates and thought to myself:
'yea, this could work.. Maybe, just maybe I can take leave for just 3 days and go for this..'
But sadly I’ve got to reject it because reality is a bitch and its about time I stop acting like an athlete and be a true Singaporean - working and having no dreams. Im only a few months in and I guess no one takes leave for the next 3 years of bond because no one has dreams to do anything extraordinary or passionate in their mundane boring lives.
arghhhhhh. Who am i kidding? I had so many great opportunities already. Why do i still feel it is not enough?
Because after every climbing day, the shoulder is weak and uncomfortable again.
How is it that I can feel so strong yet weak still.
- The Medicine of Hope (via octobermoe)
The speeders gave me a huge ass card notes to thank me for helping them with their nsscc betas.
I honestly did not do much because it was netball season and only went down to take a look a couple of times (and each time they bought me 100plus and gave me a milo bar :’) #touchedtothemax ) So to receive this I was really touched and maybe its just a vjrc thing. Haha.
But one note that stood out was from one of the excos. She thanked me for not being elitist and for giving each and everyone of them the attention - she was not one of the fastest, but she had worked hard for this. She never was one who was pumping on the pullup bars either, nor strong in the other categories, but she chose speed. It never crossed my mind to actually be fair to everyone outright. I just watched, pointed out some mistakes, showed them abit, (maybe forced them to go run after run. :p), make them focus on other details, etc. Kind of like how I was being taught last time. I cant remember if I actually DID help everyone out. Haha.
I didnt think anyone would point that out.. because during one of the trainings, I was also supposed to help the mjc team out, but I was too focused on the vjc climbers and I felt bad after, for leaving the others to their own - it was their first time trying to speed. So well, I guess I’m still an elitist or something, or selfish in reserving my time for the team I had committed to in the beginning? Ah, the past is the past.
Anyways, I’m glad I gave her the attention that she sought. You know, I want to make sure that in the future when I coach, I continue to give them the attention that they need, to just help each one on their beta because everyone needs someone to look out for them. To be the advice that they would also look forward to hearing.