I just got news that I’ve got an invite to go compete in the Australian Nationals. Sounds like big news and its a partial sponsor by Climb Asia. Feel so honored. So despite skipping all the World Champs and Asian Champ stuff, i checked the dates and thought to myself:
'yea, this could work.. Maybe, just maybe I can take leave for just 3 days and go for this..'
But sadly I’ve got to reject it because reality is a bitch and its about time I stop acting like an athlete and be a true Singaporean - working and having no dreams. Im only a few months in and I guess no one takes leave for the next 3 years of bond because no one has dreams to do anything extraordinary or passionate in their mundane boring lives.
arghhhhhh. Who am i kidding? I had so many great opportunities already. Why do i still feel it is not enough?
Because after every climbing day, the shoulder is weak and uncomfortable again.
How is it that I can feel so strong yet weak still.
- The Medicine of Hope (via octobermoe)
The speeders gave me a huge ass card notes to thank me for helping them with their nsscc betas.
I honestly did not do much because it was netball season and only went down to take a look a couple of times (and each time they bought me 100plus and gave me a milo bar :’) #touchedtothemax ) So to receive this I was really touched and maybe its just a vjrc thing. Haha.
But one note that stood out was from one of the excos. She thanked me for not being elitist and for giving each and everyone of them the attention - she was not one of the fastest, but she had worked hard for this. She never was one who was pumping on the pullup bars either, nor strong in the other categories, but she chose speed. It never crossed my mind to actually be fair to everyone outright. I just watched, pointed out some mistakes, showed them abit, (maybe forced them to go run after run. :p), make them focus on other details, etc. Kind of like how I was being taught last time. I cant remember if I actually DID help everyone out. Haha.
I didnt think anyone would point that out.. because during one of the trainings, I was also supposed to help the mjc team out, but I was too focused on the vjc climbers and I felt bad after, for leaving the others to their own - it was their first time trying to speed. So well, I guess I’m still an elitist or something, or selfish in reserving my time for the team I had committed to in the beginning? Ah, the past is the past.
Anyways, I’m glad I gave her the attention that she sought. You know, I want to make sure that in the future when I coach, I continue to give them the attention that they need, to just help each one on their beta because everyone needs someone to look out for them. To be the advice that they would also look forward to hearing.
Havent watched TFIOS yet, but a friend of mine posted this (a little reminder to myself):
'The fault in our stars' touched my soul so deeply that I could not stop pondering about the conversations and the deep meanings hidden behind the story. It was so good that I felt this ache when the movie ended. The funny thing was I could not stop thinking of one particular scene, and it probably wasn't even part of the highlights of the movie. The scene where Augustus's best friend had just broken up with his girlfriend and he was so angry that he felt the need to hit and smash things. Augustus had many trophies he had won in his basketball competition and he offered them to his friend to smash while he continued talking to the girl of his dreams. Albeit the scene being funny, there were two beautiful insights to the story.
One - the worldly pursuits and gains of this world (his trophies that he had painstakingly won in many competitions) meant nothing to him if he could let his friend vent his anger. How many of us cling on to our prized possessions; our medals, trophies and collectibles when all these things are not something we can bring to the grave.
Second - Nothing was more important than spending time talking to the girl of his dreams. It didn’t matter that his trophies were being smashed. He had his eye on the Only Trophy in the room that was worth it, which was Hazel Grace. Again this teaches us a lesson. Spending time with our loved ones are far more important than the tangible things of this world. We have our heads stuck in our handphones, tablets and mp3s even when our loved ones are right in front of us.